my new year resolutions for 2010

Posted: December 17th, 2009 | Author: suhshi | Filed under: My Journey, Uncategorized | 3 Comments »

The new year is around the corner and I know it’s cliche to say it, but time has flown by fast as hell. Looking back at all the past years I tried and set a new goal for the following year, I’ve failed over and over. But I think the important part is that I’m setting goals and attempting to accomplish than to never have goals at all.

For the upcoming year, 2010, I’d like to say my resolution will be:

Losing weight for the wedding. Not only that but taking care of my health for the long run. I want to be around as long as I can and healthy as possible to spend the rest of my life with my future to be wife. With C being sickly often, at least one of us should stay healthy as possible to take care of the other.

Manage my time. I inundate myself with overwhelming positions, projects, freelance gigs, and charity work. I’ve realized that I tend to take on more things than I can manage and the end product shows. I feel bad for the people I help, and I feel bad for myself for putting myself through stupid management of my own time. I’ve decided I will manage my time wisely, and not to spread myself to thin. I’m tired of working after work at home and I just need rest time.

These are my 2 resolutions for the upcoming year. I will fail many times but I now have something to strive for.

ok, i guess life can be worse

Posted: January 9th, 2009 | Author: suhshi | Filed under: My Journey, Uncategorized | 4 Comments »

So this past Tuesday I got laid off from my job. The company I was working for just couldn’t generate enough money to keep everyone on board and I was on the chopping block. I didn’t get laid off because of my performance, which was super awesome, but the lack of funds. They gave me a severance package and told me how I can come back if they have more money but goodbye for now. Sucks.

I really liked my job. This was my first job I’ve ever had that I actually enjoyed. Yea, work was sometimes tedious and strenuous, but overall the office was small, filled with decent people and great friends. But I guess all great things come to an end sometime or another.

Since Tuesday I’ve been feeling kind of down since the lay off. I feel like I’m a useless, a non-contributing bastard, broke as a joke, fool that still wakes up early and sits in front of a computer without getting paid. Yesterday we went out for reverse happy hour, and for the first time this week I felt better. Not 100%, but a little better. I think morning time has been the toughest. Waking up early cause my bodies used to it, and sitting their doing nothing. I dreamed of the day I would get to sit around on my ass and do nothing and now I’ve got it yet it sucks. I guess I’m more afraid of not knowing what the future holds anymore. At least with a job you know what your supposed to do everyday but with no job, you can do whatever the hell you want. Maybe I’m afraid of being let loose into the world once again from the grips of a corporate job.

I’m just thankful that I have C in my life cause she’s been very encouraging since my lay off. She says she has a “hunch”; something great is going to happen next. I thank God for blessing me with such a great gf.

So what do I do now?
I don’t know exactly, but I know I don’t want another corporate job. But I do want a job. My dream is to own my own business, and not just a business but a successful business that’s profitable. I want my business to help others that are in need, help make a difference in this world one person at a time. I’m going to focus all my efforts and time to One World United for the next month or two and I hope all you readers can keep myself accountable. If you’re feeling kind you can donate money to the One World United fund =).

So all in all, I lay my life and future before God… cause I know God has something awesome planned for me.

One World United website: www.createadifference.org

believe it or not… it is a myth

Posted: January 5th, 2009 | Author: suhshi | Filed under: Just Cool, Uncategorized | No Comments »

Ever have a conversation with your friends and end up arguing about what’s true and what’s a myth? Well here are some cool facts I found on common mis-understandings… (myths)

Sugar causes hyperactivity in children

At least 12 double blind randomized controlled trials have examined how children react to diets containing different levels of sugar. None of these studies, not even studies looking specifically at children with attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder, could detect any differences in behavior between the children who had sugar and those who did not. This includes sugar from sweets, chocolate, and natural sources. Even in studies of those who were considered “sensitive” to sugar, children did not behave differently after eating sugar full or sugar-free diets.

Scientists have even studied how parents react to the sugar myth. When parents think their children have been given a drink containing sugar (even if it is really sugar-free), they rate their children’s behavior as more hyperactive. The differences in the children’s behavior were all in the parents’ minds.

Suicides increase over the holidays

Holidays can bring out the worst in us. The combined stresses of family dysfunction, exacerbation in loneliness, and more depression over the cold dark winter months are commonly thought to increase the number of suicides. While the holidays might, indeed, be a difficult time for some, there is no good scientific evidence to suggest a holiday peak in suicides.

One study from Japan that looked at suicides in 1979-94 showed that the rate of suicide was lowest in the days before a holiday and highest in the days after the holiday. In contrast, in a study from the United States of suicides over a 35 year period, there was no increase before, during, or after holidays. Indeed, people might actually experience increased emotional and social support during holidays. In the US, rates of psychiatric visits decrease before Christmas and increase again afterward. A smaller study of adolescents showed a peak in suicide attempts at the end of the school year, possibly reflecting a decrease in social support. Data from Ireland on suicide in 1990- also failed to connect suicides with the holidays. While Irish women were no more likely to commit suicide on holidays than on any other days, Irish men were actually significantly less likely to do so.

Further debunking myths about suicide, people are not more likely to commit suicide during the dark winter months. Around the world, suicides peak in warmer months and are actually lowest in the winter. In Finland, suicides peak in autumn and are lowest in the winter. In a 30 year study of suicides in Hungary, researchers again found the highest rates of suicides in the summer and the lowest in the winter. Studies of suicide rates from India also show peaks in April and May. Studies from the US reflect this pattern, with lower rates in November and December than in typically warmer months.

Of course, none of this evidence suggests that suicides do not happen over the holidays. The epidemiological evidence just does not support that the holidays are a time of increased risk.

Hair and fingernails continue to grow after death

Morbid information about the body captures the imagination and reinforces medical mythology. In All Quiet on the Western Front, the author describes a friend’s fingernails growing in corkscrews after the burial.Johnny Carson even perpetuated this myth with his joke, “For three days after death hair and fingernails continue to grow, but phone calls taper off.” To quote the expert opinion of forensic anthropologist William Maples, “It is a powerful, disturbing image, but it is pure moonshine. No such thing occurs.”

This myth does have a basis in a biological phenomenon that can occur after death. As Maples and numerous dermatologists explain, dehydration of the body after death and drying or desiccation may lead to retraction of the skin around the hair or nails. The skin’s retraction can create an appearance of increased length or of greater prominence because of the optical illusion created by contrasting the shrunken soft tissues with the nails or hair. The actual growth of hair and nails, however, requires a complex hormonal regulation not sustained after death.

Reading in dim light ruins your eyesight

The fearful idea that reading in dim light could ruin one’s eyesight probably has its origins in the physiological experience of eye strain. Suboptimal lighting can create a sensation of having difficulty in focusing. It also decreases the rate of blinking and leads to discomfort from drying, particularly in conditions of voluntary squinting. The important counterpoint is that these effects do not persist.

The majority consensus in ophthalmology, as outlined in a collection of educational material for patients, is that reading in dim light does not damage your eyes. Although it can cause eye strain with multiple temporary negative effects, it is unlikely to cause a permanent change on the function or structure of the eyes. Even in patients with Sjögren’s syndrome (an autoimmune disease that features inflammation in certain glands of the body), decreased functional visual acuity associated with strained reading improves when they stop reading.

One review article on myopia concludes that increased use of one’s eyes, such as reading in dim light or holding books too close to the face, could result in impaired ocular growth and refractive error. The primary evidence cited was epidemiological evidence of the increased prevalence of myopia and the high incidence of myopia in people with more academic experience. The author notes that this hypothesis is just beginning to “gain scientific credence.” In the past reading conditions involved even less light, relying on candles or lanterns, so increased rates of myopia over the past several centuries does not necessarily support that dim reading conditions are to blame. In contrast to that review, hundreds of online expert opinions conclude that reading in low light does not hurt your eyes.

Original articles can be found here and here.

i'm back and you know it

Posted: October 20th, 2008 | Author: suhshi | Filed under: My Journal, Uncategorized | 1 Comment »

So I’ve been out of town for that past 5 days in the city that never sleeps (vegas). I had to go for work. It’s an expo for inventors that happens once a year and this year was the first. I have to admit, we did a pretty damn good job. I applaud everyone on the team for the hard work and pulling this tremendous task.

So first night I landed in Vegas, I decided to hit the casino. The shining lights were drawing me in like fly hypnotized by a bug zapper. I couldn’t resist the temptation of the vast of money I could possibly win. Craps table is where I landed after losing a quick 10 buck loss on a slot machine. After ten or so Goose and seven (vodka and 7up), I was up $340 profit. I felt like I just sucker punched Vegas in the face. For the first time, I’m actually walking away from a casino with money I won instead of losing my shirt off my back.

After the two day expo was over, I had to hit the casino once more. After a $150 meal on the company, a few more Goose and sevens, I was ready to face the Goliath (Vinetian hotel casino) like mother freaking David. One after another, everyone kept rolling sevens after their first roll. What the hell. I lost a $100 in a matter of minutes. I walked away pisst off.

So we decided to hit up New York Casino since that was our lucky casino where I banked $340 the first night. I lost another $100 before the drink I ordered was even brought to the table. I walked away pisst off and tired. Damn it. I’m only up $140 bucks. I gladly took my money and walked away knowing I took a piece of Vegas, and it felt damn good but not really. $340 sounds much nicer. But I’m back home and I’ve missed it so much. I missed C just nagging at me all the time, dogs shittin all over the place yappin my ears off, and most of all just sitting around watching tv with C.

Peace out Vegas, for another year.